Posted by steve on August 3, 2005
Tapescript Journey to the cure for addiction #3
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Looking for a cure for addiction to short term hits of happiness. An addiction-fostering environment means that there is no “natural” way for you to handle the addiction once you have started to exhibit additive behaviour. You simply have to consciously bring yourself out of it.
In this series of Imagestreams I am in a program of treatments.
In the departure hall the leaves of the rubber plant appear behind my bench in the waiting area.
I go to the grey lift, the nurse catches me up. “Wait for me”
Getting in the lift I press “3” I don’t know why.
As the lift ascends I check her uniform out – fairly standard.
“You are nearly finished with the sessions,” she says.
The lift opens and she takes me to my room where I get changed. I walk past the swimming pool and enter the room where the others were before. We wait for the leader. She takes her leave.
In the corner stands the Alpha wave sculpture, filled with water to a certain point. I wonder what you strike it with. Metal?
I pick up a metal hammer and give it the lightest tap – and get a chunky sound.
The guy enters saying he’ll show us the sculpture later and asks us to sit in the ring.
“Have you been practicing finding a quiet time? The quietness is your anchor in the story of this modern life,” he says.
Adrenaline exhaustion is what I have probably; I am living close to burning myself out.
He asks: “What shall we do now do you think?”
“We need to consciously work out how to get ourselves back- how we can pull ourselves away from the addiction side of the line,” I venture.
“Yes!” He says. “Now you know what best practice is, and you know what worst practice is as you are doing it so you need to draw the line between them.”
Everyone is in a ring around the circle on the floor.
“When-then” is the formula?
He explains: “When that happens then I do this…that is drawing the line. That is the line you need to focus on to bring you back.”
We break up into groups I go into the handling personal living space group, which is my chosen problem area.
When I pick something up and don’t have a place to put it what do I do then?
I put it in a place …the place for things with no place.
Then they will pile up.
When they Pile up THEN I will organize a place for them.
The others have a go.
“WHEN my house looks dirty THEN I will immediately decide a time when I will do the cleaning.”
“When I see something lying around THEN I will go and put it back immediately.”
(“I’ll be at it all day,” I object in my thoughts but then realize if I did this regularly I would not be at it all day)
“Is it this easy?” I ask.
“Yes, if the situation is draining your energy.”
“How long do you do it for?”
“All the time till it becomes automatic.”
Then you do it for the other areas as well.
You start with what is your situation..
A workbook is good, to have everything available and to draw the sections out and your priorities.
In the zone you will feel what you want to do and naturally get back.
The thing in the corner does not work – it is probably just a joke I think.
“If you run your finger round the rim you will get a sound. It is meant to stimulate alpha waves.” The leader says.
I think I understand, I must fill my form in for the when then bottom line. What it is and how it makes you feel. For each area, describe the situation – how bad does it make you feel, how do you want to fell. What is best practice and what is your strategy application of best practice. And then what are you going to do to keep yourself in the zone. And then everything will happen naturally. Your deeper desires will come to you and you will get the chance to adjust more naturally. With quiet time you will attune yourself more to yourself.
Look at your file everyday to keep yourself on track everyday.
To keep inspired to keep on track put a letter to yourself in the front of the file.
Follow up this treatment to write
Why you care what your situation was
* How you were feeling
* What you found out
* What you decided to do about it, what you hope for so you can go back and see where you came from and see your own progress.
* What you decided
* Your request to yourself to help keep you on track.
The final part is the planning. Then there are other treatments you can do to help with relaxation, the physical side, the physical regime of exercise to help you.
You can go now on your way and good luck.
I ask the nurse if that is it, what I do next. She thinks I should do the treatment. Construct the workbook for myself and go through it. Then maybe use that to work out what is best for what I should do.
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